The Leopard and the City

 “A leopard shall watch over their cities.”

 --Jeremiah 5:6

Rain fell out of the cloud of time.

It made no argument.  Droplets

blotched a blond meadow.  Out

of the pattern a leopard arose.

Its eyes reflected the cloud of time.

An old small city is my soul,

such as it is.  The leopard watches

over it, her breathing and her heartbeat

syncopated.  I do not visit there as often

as I should: Work is elsewhere

in factory-towns of will.  When

the small city seems to call, I take

a road curved round a cliff.  Up there

sits the leopard.  The ledge is blue.

Arrived, I seek a sanguine plaza.  People

I have tried to be loiter there.  They slouch

and lean and gab.  They know me well.

Out of the rain in a baked café,

we share a meal.  We speak of the leopard,

become one person in the cloud of time.

hans ostrom circa 1990/2021

forgotten dream

you woke up

and the dream

floated out of
mind like pollen
patterns on a
spring stream

hans ostrom 2021

Spinoza

 (Baruch de Spinoza, 1632-1677)

there in the Hague

Spinoza sat, grinding

lenses, making a living

from clarity.

Jews expelled him,

Christians menaced 

him, just because

he wrote that

God was the sum 

of all parts--the 

only complete

being and the property

of no religion

but only of Godself.

it came as cold 

news. worse,

it made

and makes

a certain amount

of sense.

"Smiling Poem"

 Reading/video of some short light verse for a heavy wet day in the Pacific Northwest:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KTlXH-v5wsA

Cup

 I am contained

in the cup of me

originally,

it's claimed, we came

from the sea.

actually,

what emerged were versions

of things that could

turn into us. nonetheless,

here I am, a full

cup of me,

a compound composed

of me, salt

water modified

elaborated, prorated, 

not quite yet

evaporated;

self-contemplated.

Hiram Reports from His Adventure

 In dark vegetation I couldn’t see

my body or hear thoughts.  Fevers

rotted memory.  Maggots flourished

and founded a parliament.

I hung in delirium, a sack

of neural bits and pieces.  Birds in

endless green hooted, screamed.

I was transported to a desert that

cooked off confusion, revealing 

basic elements of who allegedly

I’d been.  My body became obvious

once more, eating dry food and

drinking wet water. I worked

in a factory of noon—my job to attach

objects to their shadows.  Memories

arrived, stumbling like scattered

soldiers returning across sand,

descending from red rim-rock,

shedding uniforms, looking for

lovers and work. 

Lost

don’t go by what I say

go by how the map reads

I must have lost our way

the map is where it leads

also, I’m not your guide

in fact I don’t know why

we’re walking side by side

or who let out that cry

Paying Respects

We found he iron garden-gate

linked to white pickets

hard and wondrous

to open. Ornamentation dated it.

Up the walkway then,

into her stifling house,

where she sat in her purple

dress and parchment skin,

saying what she thought

her whole life had taught

her. Almost too old to pity,

she was too austere to embrace.

The voice seemed to come

from years ago.

Our minds assured us

we would never grow

that weird if ever we

grew that old. Our minds

were confident we could

open the gate again, get

away. It stood out there

in advanced darkness. Inside,

the seconds of her clanking clock

ate the minutes of our patience.

The Ride, the Badge

Tonight my memory is

a palomino exuberantly hooved

in an alpine meadow.

I ride the horse bareback

and fall off, replacing air

in lungs with fear,

pushing fear out then inhaling

again. I hold out

a sugar-cube on a flat palm

for my memory,

which nuzzles with a soft

gray mouth, nips

the cube, leaves lovely

equine slobber. The tail flicks out

at a fat fly, makes broom sounds.

Sunlight, the old sheriff, jumps

up on my memory,

and everything goes golden,

gathers

into a bright badge of

summer.

Evening Studies

 What I learned about evening

included flapping bats silhouetted

against last light, mosquitoes

stuck to skin, a human need for

liquor to lead one into night.

Evening reduced disappointment

into sour essences affecting flavor

of suppers, brightness of eyes,

ligaments of love.  I learned

the ambience of graveyards becomes

buoyant  at dusk:  Ghosts get

in a good mood, old oaks cool down,

words on headstones recede.  In

twilight I studied attitudes of awe

toward beautiful young women.

Gratefully, I took in breezes

of their perfumes, watched

the care with which they walked

in a shadowless hour.

© right now    twilight   

Squirrels

I’ve watched squirrels my whole life.  They

inhabit a zone just outside domesticity. Are

diplomatically wild.  They worry and stare,

behaviors of which I approve.  They horde

forgetfully, gorge daintily.  Sometimes

they just stop.  And fall asleep, mid-day,

on a limb or a fence post.  Squirrel

entropy. Sometimes frenzy

seizes them—something to do

with sex.  Or fleas? —Mad bursts of wants

a frozen pose arrests.  Squirrels

are not everything I had hoped wilderness

to be.  They are though everything

I would want squirrels to be, and

slightly more, for there’s always 

one more surprise set to leap

out of squirrel-evolution and seize

the nut, bury it, and pat fresh

soil over the nut-grave.  And run away!

Fingernail Clippers

 [new version]

A sea creature of lore owned

a gigantic, snub-nosed head

from which a body tapered

shyly. Digital blacksmiths hammer

out our steel replicas.

Lever and fulcrum and

paired toothless blades:

the spare architecture

of a specialized tool.

Owing to his mania,

the reclusive billionaire

eschewed clippers and let

his fingernails accrue

like stalactites. They clicked

like scurrying roaches

when he played cards.

Crows and monkeys groom

each other, picking bugs

from feathers and fur. A calm

comes over them as they pick

and peck. Thinking of them,

I clip a thumbnail--hiding,

like them, from hunger and

fear for a moment, attending

quietly to a bodily chore,

pressing a lever like Archimedes,

watching slivers of keratin

fall away like dreams.

thing poem © right now    fingernail • clipper

Sandwich

Sometimes you need a sandwich,

especially when it's not all you need.

Every culture calls it something

else. It's bread and something else.

Sometimes you need dry and warm.

Or you need to rationalize failure

or to read about Sufism. Sometimes

you need to be touched, seen, heard. 

But's that's all beside the point,

isn't it? when you're stomach 

and your gums ache from 

hunger. I'm making sandwiches

today. To be given to the homeless.

I see them beside the street 

where I drop off the sandwiches. 

They live in tents. Sleep on 

grass. In the wealthiest empire

ever to exist. Whatever. They

can't eat outrage. It's the sandwich

that matters, sitting there on a 

plate, a plank, or your lap. 

The distributors want bread,

bologna, cheese, and mustard.

Never mayonnaise. Someone

I'll never know lifts the sandwich,

opens their mouth, chomps,

tastes, chews, swallows. Feels

just a little bit better. I hope. 

What do I know? Nothing. I know

sometimes I've needed a sandwich.

To get from one moment

to the next. And some water. 

And a place to sleep. And sleep.

But it starts with a sandwich.

Something very particular

in the exact place you are

is what you need. What I need.

Some bread and something else.

To eat. To eat. To eat.