Friday, January 8, 2021

How Are You Enjoying the Dictatorship?

 (first posted January 27, 2017)


Oh look America
at what White Supremacy
made you do again.

Fear of change, fear
of knowledge, too. Oh,
look, White men at what

never growing up
has set loose like a
plague. Oh, look,

women, at what
White men want to to
to your body

citing some whacked-
out version of some
scripture. 

Still flying that
Confederate flag
and hanging nooses?

Still really proud
of slavery and Jim Crow? 
Nice way to show

you don't know 
right from wrong. 
Oh, look America

at what snorting
celebrity will get you. 
A bloated faux billionaire

racist on top means
you've hit bottom. Again. 
Where the dictator's 

people will stomp you,
just their way of thanking
you for your support. 



Idiosynchronized

People we see once: flood of faces, coats,

collars--on avenues and plazas,  in markets, 

theatres, bars, banks, hospitals.  A bent


shape hoeing weeds: one of us saw it once

one place from a train: This

is an example but only of itself.  Its


singularity can’t be transposed.  Imagine

you remember the person who interested you

terribly in that café that morning that city.


Sure it happened, but you don’t remember

because once was not enough.  People we

see once compose our lives.  Forgetting


them (we must), we lose wide arenas

of the lived.   Even ghosts return, but not

the vast mass of once-only-noticed


who compose medium and matrix

of our one time here.  We are adjacent and

circumstantial to strangers, one jostle


of flux away from knowing next to everything

about their lives.  The river of moments takes

a different channel; the one moment becomes nothing now.


The once-only appear, then appear to go 

to an Elsewhere that defines us.  They go on

to get to know who they get to know.


Their lives are theoretically real to us, like

subatomic particles.  To them their lives

are practically real to them.   From their


view, ours are not.  We know they were there,

vivid strangers, because they always are, 

every day.  Like a wreath floating 


 on the ocean, memory marks a space 

abandoned.   In large measure life is

recall of spaces occupied.  History


consists of someone who insists on being

remembered, someone who insists on 

remembering, combinations of both.  Familiarity 


and routine join to vie methodically; they

capture places in recall.  Vivid strangers are

incidentally crucial, indigenous to a


present moment that is like a mist

over a meadow, rising, evaporating 

just when we arrive, past as we are present.


at the mansion

my candelabras are clandestine.

they hang from whining beams

in this derelict mansion, ready

for their close-ups, Mr. DeMille.



sometime you must visit.

we’ll waltz a bit like half-

cracked aristocrats, apres

Revolution, sans portfolio.



sagging splendor. tawdry times.

we'll alert the neighbors

about a  shotgun marriage

of sweat and perfume, the



pretensions and the practicality

of self-taught lunacy, all decked

out in tuxedos and gowns bought

at  flea markets.  RSVP, or not. 


circa 1994/2021

Thursday, January 7, 2021

Tuesday, January 5, 2021

Closing Time

tonight my cabaret of fears

glowed and hummed.


a band played anxiously in

sharp keys.  the bartender


claimed not to have seen

Death around lately. but


she spoke she turned away

to polish a glass.


hans ostrom 

circa 1994/2021

Pulp Mill, Commencement Bay

  (Tacoma, Washington)


 the mill on the bay

processes night.

 

an engineered

beast, it never inhales.

 

its smoke-steam is white

and slow like dream clouds.

 

its mansion of pipes

is lit up like a festival.

 

the mill manufactures

livings and my sleep.


circa 2005/2021

hans ostrom

 

The Son She Never Had

 

The son she never had visits her

one night.  He’s grown, a man

with stories to tell and scars,


 big knuckles.  At the table under

yellow light, she asks what it was

like to be a son without a mother.


 “Oh, I had a mother,” he says.

The lines on his face are rivers

of her dreams.  “She just wasn’t you.”


 He takes her hand and leads her

past fact to worn brown carpet

of the “family” room.  They dance.


 She lays her head on his chest.

Above her is the ceiling where

her husband’s cigar-smoke settled.


 Later they sit in the two big chairs.

“Do me a favor,” she asks, “and walk out

the door.  I want to know


 your manner of leaving.”  He

obliges, a good son.  Silence rushes back

into the house like winter air.


 On the porch she tells herself

he would have had such knuckles

and danced with her that way.


 He would have traveled far but come back.

In a factory he would have paused some

days in machinery roar and thought of her.


circa 1989/2021

 

The Leopard and the City

 “A leopard shall watch over their cities.”

 --Jeremiah 5:6



Rain fell out of the cloud of time.

It made no argument.  Droplets

blotched a blond meadow.  Out

of the pattern a leopard arose.

Its eyes reflected the cloud of time.


An old small city is my soul,

such as it is.  The leopard watches

over it, her breathing and her heartbeat

syncopated.  I do not visit there as often

as I should: Work is elsewhere

in factory-towns of will.  When


the small city seems to call, I take

a road curved round a cliff.  Up there

sits the leopard.  The ledge is blue.

Arrived, I seek a sanguine plaza.  People

I have tried to be loiter there.  They slouch

and lean and gab.  They know me well.


Out of the rain in a baked café,

we share a meal.  We speak of the leopard,

become one person in the cloud of time.


hans ostrom circa 1990/2021



forgotten dream

you woke up
and the dream
floated out of
mind like pollen
patterns on a
spring stream



hans ostrom 2021

Spinoza

 (Baruch de Spinoza, 1632-1677)

there in the Hague
Spinoza sat, grinding
lenses, making a living
from clarity.

Jews expelled him,
Christians menaced 
him, just because
he wrote that

God was the sum 
of all parts--the 
only complete
being and the property

of no religion
but only of Godself.
it came as cold 
news. worse,

it made
and makes
a certain amount
of sense.

Monday, January 4, 2021

"Smiling Poem"

 Reading/video of some short light verse for a heavy wet day in the Pacific Northwest:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KTlXH-v5wsA

Cup

 I am contained

in the cup of me

originally,

it's claimed, we came


from the sea.

actually,

what emerged were versions

of things that could


turn into us. nonetheless,

here I am, a full

cup of me,

a compound composed


of me, salt

water modified

elaborated, prorated, 

not quite yet


evaporated;

self-contemplated.

Hiram Reports from His Adventure

 In dark vegetation I couldn’t see

my body or hear thoughts.  Fevers

rotted memory.  Maggots flourished

and founded a parliament.


I hung in delirium, a sack

of neural bits and pieces.  Birds in

endless green hooted, screamed.

I was transported to a desert that


cooked off confusion, revealing 

basic elements of who allegedly

I’d been.  My body became obvious

once more, eating dry food and


drinking wet water. I worked

in a factory of noon—my job to attach

objects to their shadows.  Memories

arrived, stumbling like scattered


soldiers returning across sand,

descending from red rim-rock,

shedding uniforms, looking for

lovers and work.