(first posted January 27, 2017)
Friday, January 8, 2021
How Are You Enjoying the Dictatorship?
Idiosynchronized
People we see once: flood of faces, coats,
collars--on avenues and plazas, in markets,
theatres, bars, banks, hospitals. A bent
shape hoeing weeds: one of us saw it once
one place from a train: This
is an example but only of itself. Its
singularity can’t be transposed. Imagine
you remember the person who interested you
terribly in that café that morning that city.
Sure it happened, but you don’t remember
because once was not enough. People we
see once compose our lives. Forgetting
them (we must), we lose wide arenas
of the lived. Even ghosts return, but not
the vast mass of once-only-noticed
who compose medium and matrix
of our one time here. We are adjacent and
circumstantial to strangers, one jostle
of flux away from knowing next to everything
about their lives. The river of moments takes
a different channel; the one moment becomes nothing now.
The once-only appear, then appear to go
to an Elsewhere that defines us. They go on
to get to know who they get to know.
Their lives are theoretically real to us, like
subatomic particles. To them their lives
are practically real to them. From their
view, ours are not. We know they were there,
vivid strangers, because they always are,
every day. Like a wreath floating
on the ocean, memory marks a space
abandoned. In large measure life is
recall of spaces occupied. History
consists of someone who insists on being
remembered, someone who insists on
remembering, combinations of both. Familiarity
and routine join to vie methodically; they
capture places in recall. Vivid strangers are
incidentally crucial, indigenous to a
present moment that is like a mist
over a meadow, rising, evaporating
just when we arrive, past as we are present.
at the mansion
Thursday, January 7, 2021
"August 1968," by W.H. Auden
Reading/video of Auden's short reaction to the USSR's/Warsaw Pact's invasion of Czechoslovakia:
Tuesday, January 5, 2021
Closing Time
tonight my cabaret of fears
glowed and hummed.
a band played anxiously in
sharp keys. the bartender
claimed not to have seen
Death around lately. but
she spoke she turned away
to polish a glass.
hans ostrom
circa 1994/2021
Pulp Mill, Commencement Bay
(
processes
night.
an
engineered
beast,
it never inhales.
its
smoke-steam is white
and
slow like dream clouds.
its
mansion of pipes
is lit
up like a festival.
the
mill manufactures
livings
and my sleep.
circa 2005/2021
hans ostrom
The Son She Never Had
The son she never had visits her
one night. He’s grown, a man
with stories to tell and scars,
big knuckles. At the table under
yellow light, she asks what it was
like to be a son without a mother.
“Oh, I had a mother,” he says.
The lines on his face are rivers
of her dreams. “She just wasn’t you.”
He takes her hand and leads her
past fact to worn brown carpet
of the “family” room. They dance.
She lays her head on his chest.
Above her is the ceiling where
her husband’s cigar-smoke settled.
Later they sit in the two big chairs.
“Do me a favor,” she asks, “and walk out
the door. I want to know
your manner of leaving.” He
obliges, a good son. Silence rushes back
into the house like winter air.
On the porch she tells herself
he would have had such knuckles
and danced with her that way.
He would have traveled far but come back.
In a factory he would have paused some
days in machinery roar and thought of her.
circa 1989/2021
The Leopard and the City
“A leopard shall watch over their cities.”
--Jeremiah 5:6
Rain fell out of the cloud of time.
It made no argument. Droplets
blotched a blond meadow. Out
of the pattern a leopard arose.
Its eyes reflected the cloud of time.
An old small city is my soul,
such as it is. The leopard watches
over it, her breathing and her heartbeat
syncopated. I do not visit there as often
as I should: Work is elsewhere
in factory-towns of will. When
the small city seems to call, I take
a road curved round a cliff. Up there
sits the leopard. The ledge is blue.
Arrived, I seek a sanguine plaza. People
I have tried to be loiter there. They slouch
and lean and gab. They know me well.
Out of the rain in a baked café,
we share a meal. We speak of the leopard,
become one person in the cloud of time.
hans ostrom circa 1990/2021
forgotten dream
mind like pollen
patterns on a
spring stream
Spinoza
(Baruch de Spinoza, 1632-1677)
Monday, January 4, 2021
"Smiling Poem"
Reading/video of some short light verse for a heavy wet day in the Pacific Northwest:
Cup
I am contained
in the cup of me
originally,
it's claimed, we came
from the sea.
actually,
what emerged were versions
of things that could
turn into us. nonetheless,
here I am, a full
cup of me,
a compound composed
of me, salt
water modified
elaborated, prorated,
not quite yet
evaporated;
self-contemplated.
Hiram Reports from His Adventure
In dark vegetation I couldn’t see
my body or hear thoughts. Fevers
rotted memory. Maggots flourished
and founded a parliament.
I hung in delirium, a sack
of neural bits and pieces. Birds in
endless green hooted, screamed.
I was transported to a desert that
cooked off confusion, revealing
basic elements of who allegedly
I’d been. My body became obvious
once more, eating dry food and
drinking wet water. I worked
in a factory of noon—my job to attach
objects to their shadows. Memories
arrived, stumbling like scattered
soldiers returning across sand,
descending from red rim-rock,
shedding uniforms, looking for
lovers and work.