I look into darknes through reflections of riders. Out there my mind wades in fog on a muddy hillock, fearful of hooves & the smell of marrow. Turning from this,
I come back to the life of the night bus, which calls to mind a casino: well lighted, solemn, ceaseless motion; shards of noise and paper; tiny bells far off; fear and weariness known by their disguises: the effort of faces to look placid, to glance only when the other glances at another. Sweat and minutes gather in muggy silence.
The night bus lights itself up from inside like a grape. The driver behind his curtain is deaf to confessions, especially to those of honest poverty. He spits the name of my Wagenhalt into an acid intercom,
opens darkness for me to enter. After the sinister hiss of pneumatic doors, after the last steel step, I sniff the fog for spore of violence.
like weather, impossible to ignore. How precise you are, like that one bough-- just one--on a cherry tree about to blossom.
No wonder I wonder at you when I really pay attention. I should mention I think we ought to visit a bright lake, and splash, or a cobblestoned alley
where there's a cafe with cats in the window. You make me know I cannot know you completely. You fascinate, you charm-- like a question so good it's perfect.
join streams of them in theirs-- snaking lines of pale yellow lamps and ruby red ones: commuting traffic.
Immense, the volcano Mount Rainier dwarfs our rolling frenzy. This morning the mountain appears as a roughly sketched triangle, all of it a back-lit blue, two-dimensional, that
little tell-tale notch at the top where one day, one night, the molten inner Earth will travel up and out, blast ash, spew lava, rain boiling mud on our busy silliness down here on this plain.
Sprinkle some of his ashes in Mobile Bay. Watch them float away past piers on their way to the Gulf of Mexico and forever.
Sprinkle some more in Perdido Bay. He found good trouble there back in the day.
Take what's left. Say the 23rd Psalm, sing "Amazing Grace" with seven unsure voices. Watch a marlin too close to shore leap out of water, its whole blue-green body flashing in sunlight. Sprinkle
the very last outside a saloon, the Floribama, big and loud and squatting on state bounder- lines. He loved the place so much he left his name there years ago,
and added "was here." Yes, walk out onto the bright white sand, past the bikinis and brown bodies, past the hoisters of beer and rum.
Yes, drop the last of his body's dust into royal blue Mobile waters as the wind pries up a few white-caps.
Turn away, walk through the bars and gift shops, past the thumping country cover band, out to the cars. Drive away and one day, one night, think "we were there once."