Saturday, September 16, 2017
Friday, September 15, 2017
Concerning Me and a Concept Called You
Like you I was in space today,
moving around on what some call
Earth. The Chinese in Mandarin
call it tu, with a diacritic mark
over the u, a parenthesis lying
on its back, looking up at the sky.
Evolution means the weather
can seem calibrated perfectly
to me (and you) and me (and you)
to the weather. A peace treaty
signed by molecules. Can be
revoked at any time.
After work, I returned
to the circumstance by which
regardless of how much humans
learn, certain fundamental
mysteries will not yield,
such as what's the all about?--
this moving around on a
matter-ball that spins and tilts
and orbits and has an indigestive core
of molten stuff.
hans ostrom
moving around on what some call
Earth. The Chinese in Mandarin
call it tu, with a diacritic mark
over the u, a parenthesis lying
on its back, looking up at the sky.
Evolution means the weather
can seem calibrated perfectly
to me (and you) and me (and you)
to the weather. A peace treaty
signed by molecules. Can be
revoked at any time.
After work, I returned
to the circumstance by which
regardless of how much humans
learn, certain fundamental
mysteries will not yield,
such as what's the all about?--
this moving around on a
matter-ball that spins and tilts
and orbits and has an indigestive core
of molten stuff.
hans ostrom
Thursday, September 14, 2017
Wednesday, September 13, 2017
The Mother of All Poems
When I think about writing the mother
of all poems that is to say a big serious
poem about my mother, I think about
the poem I wrote, in Karl Shapiro's class,
about how a piano contains all notes,
all potential melodies, etc., in some kind
of ideal way. And after I read it, Shapiro
said to the class, "D.H. Lawrence wrote
a poem about a piano, but it was really
about his mother; he was in love with
her." I found the comment unhelpful,
plus suggestive of incest. Oh, well:
workshops. I also think of my mother
and her low tolerance for nonsense,
such as puppets and murderers. She
sat on the jury that convicted serial
killer Larry Lord Motherwell (ahem),
which was the name he, Frank
Eugene Caventer, gave himself,
a nom de meurtrier.
Ma wanted to make sure Motherwell
got the gas chamber, and she never forgave
the one juror who prevented that.
Anyway, I really don't feel like writing
an ambitious poem about my mother.
It seems like too much work for too
little gain, and I don't know--
Freud, Shapiro, and millions of
other people have kind of ruined
the subject for me. My mother liked
to drink Hamm's beer out of the can.
hans ostrom 2017
of all poems that is to say a big serious
poem about my mother, I think about
the poem I wrote, in Karl Shapiro's class,
about how a piano contains all notes,
all potential melodies, etc., in some kind
of ideal way. And after I read it, Shapiro
said to the class, "D.H. Lawrence wrote
a poem about a piano, but it was really
about his mother; he was in love with
her." I found the comment unhelpful,
plus suggestive of incest. Oh, well:
workshops. I also think of my mother
and her low tolerance for nonsense,
such as puppets and murderers. She
sat on the jury that convicted serial
killer Larry Lord Motherwell (ahem),
which was the name he, Frank
Eugene Caventer, gave himself,
a nom de meurtrier.
Ma wanted to make sure Motherwell
got the gas chamber, and she never forgave
the one juror who prevented that.
Anyway, I really don't feel like writing
an ambitious poem about my mother.
It seems like too much work for too
little gain, and I don't know--
Freud, Shapiro, and millions of
other people have kind of ruined
the subject for me. My mother liked
to drink Hamm's beer out of the can.
hans ostrom 2017
Crop-Burning, Kansas
Dusk, and we're moving on I-35
through Kansas. West of us, green
land dissolves into dissolving
available light. Sky flares
at the horizon. East of us,
flames razor yellow patterns
on black, burning undulating
land. In the car talking,
we weave a makeshift fabric
of family lore, wounds and
resentments, hilarities. One
of us glances ahead through
the windshield: rear lights
of cars burn hot and red
like lit cigarette tips.
Green land fades altogether.
Red sky goes pink, goes gray.
Night will arrive before Wichita
does. We're not anywhere very long.
hans ostrom 2017
through Kansas. West of us, green
land dissolves into dissolving
available light. Sky flares
at the horizon. East of us,
flames razor yellow patterns
on black, burning undulating
land. In the car talking,
we weave a makeshift fabric
of family lore, wounds and
resentments, hilarities. One
of us glances ahead through
the windshield: rear lights
of cars burn hot and red
like lit cigarette tips.
Green land fades altogether.
Red sky goes pink, goes gray.
Night will arrive before Wichita
does. We're not anywhere very long.
hans ostrom 2017
Tuesday, September 12, 2017
It's 1954 and Emmett Kelly remembers
the Hartford, Connecticut, circus fire,
1944: the big tent went up,
and people panicked like animals,
but the big cats got strangely calm.
The famous clown rushed from
the small dressing-tent in makeup,
managed more authority than a cop
because a clown's not supposed
to speak, so when he spoke,
the wild eyed customers listened.
They let him save their lives
with a frown. Back in his tent,
he said to Willie in the mirror,
"No show tonight. No show
in Clown Alley." Other clowns
entered, hysterical, said who'd lived,
who hadn't. (168 hadn't.)
"You were wonderful," they told Emmett,
who had removed half of Willie's face.
As Kelly he shrugged. "I did what I could."
Now in 1954, Madison Square Garden,
Emmett's put on half of Willie's face.
He feels weary. He tells an interviewer,
"Clowning is nothing you can study for."
hans ostrom 2017
1944: the big tent went up,
and people panicked like animals,
but the big cats got strangely calm.
The famous clown rushed from
the small dressing-tent in makeup,
managed more authority than a cop
because a clown's not supposed
to speak, so when he spoke,
the wild eyed customers listened.
They let him save their lives
with a frown. Back in his tent,
he said to Willie in the mirror,
"No show tonight. No show
in Clown Alley." Other clowns
entered, hysterical, said who'd lived,
who hadn't. (168 hadn't.)
"You were wonderful," they told Emmett,
who had removed half of Willie's face.
As Kelly he shrugged. "I did what I could."
Now in 1954, Madison Square Garden,
Emmett's put on half of Willie's face.
He feels weary. He tells an interviewer,
"Clowning is nothing you can study for."
hans ostrom 2017
Transformation: Dementia
He remembers language
but not his memory. He speaks
of what he sees. He scratches
his knees. A straggling memory
wanders by, covered with soot
from a burnt whole life.
To this memory he says hello.
Does not recall why he said
hello. Does not recall that
he said hello. He doesn't
remember scratching his knees.
He speaks. He sees. He listens
to speaking he speaks. It does
not interest him. This does:
An aroma. Of . . .?
He falls asleep in front of
what he sees. Outside of his sleep,
we speak of what we remember
of his memory using some of
the language he used to recall.
hans ostrom 2017
but not his memory. He speaks
of what he sees. He scratches
his knees. A straggling memory
wanders by, covered with soot
from a burnt whole life.
To this memory he says hello.
Does not recall why he said
hello. Does not recall that
he said hello. He doesn't
remember scratching his knees.
He speaks. He sees. He listens
to speaking he speaks. It does
not interest him. This does:
An aroma. Of . . .?
He falls asleep in front of
what he sees. Outside of his sleep,
we speak of what we remember
of his memory using some of
the language he used to recall.
hans ostrom 2017
Saturday, September 9, 2017
Friday, September 8, 2017
Crow Travel
Just sitting outside in search of
fresh air, not looking for them:
a couple hundred crows
flying southeast across a chalk sky.
Were they coming from the famous
crow compound and annual banquet
on Whidbey Island? Hell, I
didn't know. Crows don't
fly in formation, not like those
fascist geese. In fact, they looked
like they'd been in a weed cafe
in Amsterdam or something--
just kind of flap-sauntering.
They flew in two groups.
Between the intervals, a solitary
crow flew from the same
direction, landed on a tree,
and got loud, as if to say,
"I didn't want to go with y'all
anyway!" Borderline personality.
I don't think it was migration.
More like they were off to
an academic crow conference
or a big wedding. Crows
just look like they have a better
handle on this reality thing.
They're not all out of control
and self-destructive like us.
hans ostrom 2017
fresh air, not looking for them:
a couple hundred crows
flying southeast across a chalk sky.
Were they coming from the famous
crow compound and annual banquet
on Whidbey Island? Hell, I
didn't know. Crows don't
fly in formation, not like those
fascist geese. In fact, they looked
like they'd been in a weed cafe
in Amsterdam or something--
just kind of flap-sauntering.
They flew in two groups.
Between the intervals, a solitary
crow flew from the same
direction, landed on a tree,
and got loud, as if to say,
"I didn't want to go with y'all
anyway!" Borderline personality.
I don't think it was migration.
More like they were off to
an academic crow conference
or a big wedding. Crows
just look like they have a better
handle on this reality thing.
They're not all out of control
and self-destructive like us.
hans ostrom 2017
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